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In 18+ incest இன்செஸ்ட் மோகனீயம்

மோகனீயம் - Sindhu's Unveiled Desires

In the wake of discovering my mom's affair with Vasu, my mind was a tumultuous tempest of conflicting emotions. The hidden lesbian bond between Parvathi and Umaiyal, along with my father's latent homosexuality, merged into my understanding. I became an observing bystander, deciphering the intricate threads weaving their intricate tapestry. Urgently, I aimed to rescue Umaiyal from Parvathi's grip, sensing a one-sided affection. Viewing Parvathi's absence as a chance for Umaiyal's liberation, I missed the shift to Visu and the twisted link they shared.

The repulsive memory of Visu's cum on my mom's face motivated my confrontation, I couldn't shake the image from my mind, a stark contrast to the way I had always seen my mom – a symbol of purity, much like a pristine flower or a crystal-clear stream. In my eyes, she had been the embodiment of innocence, untainted and ethereal. But now, that image was marred, tainted by Visu's crude act, and it haunted my thoughts relentlessly. It was as though a dark stain had blotted the canvas of her purity, and I was determined to cleanse it, to restore her to the untarnished essence she once embodied. Fueled by both disgust and a desire to free her.

What if Visu had unearthed something about Umaiyal, something that kept her ensnared in this enigmatic tryst? The very thought made my heart race with apprehension. Those images of my mom's pleasure were both captivating and disconcerting, yet the visage of Visu defiling her with his crude climax triggered an intense revulsion deep within me. Suddenly, the word "facial" crept into my mind out of nowhere. I couldn't help but wonder who would invent such a word to describe intimate acts. My imagination ventured into unsettling territory, conjuring images of a serene spa where someone was performing an actual facial treatment, but with this cum. The incongruity of such a scenario only added to my sense of disquiet and the bewildering enigma surrounding Umaiyal's actions. It was as if the world had unveiled its darker, more perplexing facets, and I found myself caught in a disconcerting journey to decipher the enigma that had ensnared my mom.

As if caught in a loop, I pondered the scenario over and over—Umaiyal trapped in a cycle of sexual gratification orchestrated by the sinister strings of Visu's manipulation. It was a disturbing notion, one that propelled me from shock to resolve. If Umaiyal craved a dominant partner, one who could guide her to fulfillment, then perhaps I could become that figure for her, should she wish it. The idea took hold, a seed of potential empowerment amidst the chaos. Confronting Visu seemed inevitable, a confrontation fueled by both my repulsion for his actions and my desire to free Umaiyal from whatever chains bound her.

Yet, deciding to confront Visu was easier than actually doing it. Time seemed to stretch as I changed my dress multiple times, each outfit scrutinized in the mirror as if it held the power to make Visu yield to my intentions. My fingers sifted through options—a delicate blouse, a casual dress—but nothing seemed fitting for the confrontation that loomed. Eventually, I settled on a short skirt and a t-shirt, hoping to use my appearance to my advantage, to play a game that could trick him into seeing me differently.

As I stood outside my house, preparing to ascend the staircase that led to his first-floor room, my heart pounded with a mixture of anticipation and anxiety. Twenty-odd steps separated me from confronting Visu, from unveiling the truth that simmered beneath the surface. Each step felt like a weighted decision, a countdown to a confrontation that could change everything. My resolve wavered with every step, my palms sweaty and my thoughts jumbled. It took multiple attempts to raise my hand and knock on his door, my knuckles rapping against the wood with an uncertain rhythm. Each knock echoed in the corridor, a testament to my determination mingled with my trepidation.

As I stood outside my house, preparing to ascend the staircase that led to his first-floor room, my heart pounded with a mixture of anticipation and anxiety. Twenty-odd steps separated me from confronting Visu, from unveiling the truth that simmered beneath the surface. Each step felt like a weighted decision, a countdown to a confrontation that could change everything. My resolve wavered with every step, my palms sweaty and my thoughts jumbled. It took multiple attempts to raise my hand and knock on his door, my knuckles rapping against the wood with an uncertain rhythm.

The door creaked open, revealing Visu's surprised expression. I could tell he wasn't entirely shocked by my presence—he had to know what I had witnessed. But still, there was a flicker of disbelief in his eyes, as if he hadn't truly expected me to show up. "Sindhu," he said, his voice a mix of genuine welcome and guarded curiosity. "Please, come in." He gestured toward the living room sofa, a subtle invitation. His appearance was disheveled, barely dressed to open the door, which led me to wonder if he had been anticipating someone else—Umaiyal, perhaps. Without a word, he turned to retreat back inside, leaving me standing in the doorway as he disappeared from view. It was only a matter of moments before he reemerged, dressed in more proper attire, an action that only fueled my suspicion that he might have been waiting for Umaiyal.

As I stepped into the living room and settled onto the sofa, a sense of unease settled over me. The confrontation I had envisioned was becoming reality, and I had a growing suspicion that Visu was more prepared for this encounter than I had initially believed. "Visu," I began tentatively, my voice a mirror to my inner turmoil, "there's something that's been gnawing at me, something I can't ignore. That night... the intimacy between you and my mother. Why wasn't there... more?"


Visu's gaze held a mixture of comprehension and patience. He seemed to understand the layers of my inquiry, the unspoken curiosity that enveloped my words. "Sindhu," he responded, his voice calm and measured, "the nature of human relationships can be intricate and multifaceted. What happened between your mother and me wasn't just about physicality. It was about a connection that went beyond the physical realm."

My brow furrowed as I grappled with his response. "But Visu, why did she do... that?" My voice faltered, unable to articulate the question that had plagued my thoughts.

Visu's gaze remained steady, his eyes reflecting a depth of understanding that transcended the need for explicit words. "Your mother," he began, choosing his words with care, "she was seeking something, a release, an escape from the confines of her reality. Sometimes, physical acts can offer a temporary respite from the complexities of life."

I nodded, absorbing his explanation even as my thoughts continued to churn. "And why didn't you... reciprocate?" I asked, my words almost a whisper.

Visu's expression softened, a hint of melancholy in his eyes. "Sindhu, what your mother and I shared wasn't about give and take in the conventional sense. It was a moment of vulnerability, of allowing ourselves to be seen without masks. Sometimes, the act of giving can be as profound as receiving. In that moment, my role was to offer her solace, to give her something she needed."

My confusion began to give way to a glimmer of understanding. "But why not... more? Why not take it further?"

Visu's gaze held mine, a depth of emotion shimmering within his eyes. "Sindhu, intimacy isn't just about physicality. It's about emotional resonance, about being attuned to each other's needs. In that moment, what your mother needed wasn't the act itself, but the connection, the closeness. It wasn't a transaction, but a shared experience."

My thoughts began to align, the pieces of the puzzle falling into place. "So, it wasn't about... sex?"

Visu smiled gently, a gesture that held a touch of sadness. "No, it wasn't about sex. It was about two people finding a fleeting moment of solace in each other's presence. Sometimes, our desires are more intricate than simple physical fulfillment."

"Why did you do that?" I found myself trembling as I confronted Visu, the mix of doubt and distress evident in my voice. "It felt like blackmail, as if there's no love, just lust, and she's doing it under compulsion rather than what you're saying."

Visu's eyes held sincerity as he met my gaze. "Sindhu, I get how it might seem that way, but it's not. What your mother and I shared was built on trust and connection, not coercion."

My skepticism remained, but curiosity started to creep in. "How can you be so sure, Visu?"

He sighed softly, seeming to recall significant memories. "Sindhu, what your mother and I have is not just physical. It's a deep bond, a connection that goes beyond the surface. It's love, pure and simple."

I blinked in surprise, struggling to reconcile Visu's words with what I had witnessed. "Love? But I didn't sense that from what I saw..."

Visu smiled, reflecting the emotions he spoke of. "What you witnessed wasn't just physical desire. It was a reflection of the love we share. Sometimes, expressions of love can take unexpected forms, but they're no less genuine."

My skepticism wavered. "So, you're saying it's not just lust?"

Visu shook his head earnestly. "No, Sindhu. It's far deeper than that. Lust is transient, but love is enduring. What your mother and I have is a profound connection that transcends the physical. It's based on trust, care, and genuine affection."

My doubts gave way to a growing awareness. "And she... she doesn't do it out of compulsion?"

Visu assured me, "Absolutely not. Your mother is a strong, independent woman who makes her own choices. What happened between us was consensual, driven by a shared understanding of our emotions."

Still grappling with vivid memories, I couldn't help but ask, "The way you climaxed on her face and made her clean it suggested otherwise. That's disgusting."

Visu's expression shifted, revealing inner conflict. After a heavy silence, he spoke again, "Sindhu, I understand your perspective, and what you saw might have appeared confusing. But there's more to that moment than meets the eye."

Curiosity grew, and I probed further, "More? What do you mean?"

Visu shared a part of his reality he hadn't intended to reveal. "Before that act, there was a discussion, a conversation between your mother and me. She wanted me to take control, to be submissive in that moment. It was a way for us to explore the dynamics of our relationship."

Trying to understand, I asked, "Submissive? But why?"

"It's complex," Visu explained. "Our relationship isn't just about physical pleasure; it's about understanding and connection. Your mother and I share a deep bond, and that moment was an exploration of trust and vulnerability, a way for us to navigate uncharted territory."

My skepticism shifted to curiosity. "So, it wasn't about degradation or humiliation?"

Visu shook his head. "No, not at all. It was about mutual exploration, about understanding each other's desires and boundaries. What you saw, though intense, was a consensual act driven by a shared understanding of our emotions."

I remained curious, my questions evolving. "The way you held her hair, the way she cried, her clear mascaraed eye dripping water…" My voice trailed off, still grappling with the vivid image I had witnessed. "I understand the concept of dominance and submission to some extent, but what I can't wrap my head around is why that act had to end that way. Why did it have to involve you climaxing on her face and then making her clean it?"

Visu acknowledged my confusion. "Sindhu, what's most important is that your mother and I share a unique connection based on trust, understanding, and deep emotion. Our actions might not align with societal norms, but they're an expression of our individuality and the emotions we feel for each other."

As our conversation continued, Visu's explanations began to shed light on the intricate layers of his relationship with my mother. It was a dialogue that challenged conventional norms and delved into the depths of human connection, leaving me with a more nuanced understanding of the complexities that can exist beyond the surface.

"I'm trying to understand, I really am. But it's still difficult for me to grasp why it had to be that way. It looked really unhygienic. I am sorry to say this, but it felt like she was like a slave, the way she was on her knees..." My voice trailed off, my words carrying a mixture of genuine curiosity and a hint of discomfort.

Visu's expression remained thoughtful, understanding the weight of my concerns. He took a moment to gather his thoughts before responding. "I appreciate your honesty, Sindhu. It's important to address these concerns openly. What you witnessed might appear unorthodox, but it's crucial to recognize that appearances can sometimes be misleading." 

I nodded, my gaze fixed on Visu, waiting for him to continue.

"As for the aspects that might seem unhygienic," Visu began, "it's important to understand that in the context of our relationship, there's a level of trust and consent that guides our actions. What might seem unhygienic in a different context becomes a part of our shared experience, rooted in mutual understanding."

My brow furrowed, still processing his words. "But the power dynamics, the way she was on her knees… It felt unequal."

As the conversation continued, I began to notice an unexpected shift in the atmosphere. The extended discussion about intimate matters had created a unique tension, one that seemed to linger in the air. I found myself acutely aware of my body's response, a subtle warmth that seemed to pool at the pit of my stomach and gradually spread through my veins.

Despite my best efforts to focus on the conversation, my senses seemed to betray me. The descriptions, explanations, and the careful delineation of the complexities in the relationship between Visu and my mother now carried an unintended weight. Every word seemed to evoke a new awareness within me, a heightened sensitivity to my own physicality.

Unconsciously, my fingers began to fidget with the edge of the cushion I was sitting on, and I shifted slightly in my seat. I couldn't shake the feeling that the room had grown smaller, the air denser with unspoken desires. The subject matter had taken on a life of its own, tugging at the fringes of my consciousness and stirring emotions I hadn't anticipated.

Visu's voice seemed to come from a distance, his explanations now accompanied by a symphony of sensations that were almost overwhelming. My heart began to beat in tandem with the rhythm of my thoughts, each beat echoing with a newfound awareness of my body's responses. My breath, once steady, now seemed to quicken slightly, a subtle reflection of the currents that were coursing beneath the surface.

I glanced at Visu, my gaze meeting his for a fleeting moment. In that instant, it felt as if something unspoken passed between us, a shared realization that the conversation had inadvertently tapped into deeper layers of our beings. The complexity of human relationships, the dance of power and vulnerability, all seemed to intertwine with the burgeoning awareness that pulsed through my veins.

With each passing moment, I felt myself becoming increasingly attuned to the undercurrents of desire that now seemed to hum in the air. It was as if a spell had been cast, casting aside the boundaries that once separated my thoughts from my body's responses. As the conversation gradually drew to a close, I found myself grappling with an enigmatic fusion of emotions—curiosity, uncertainty, and a growing intrigue. 

My thoughts were a whirlwind of contemplation. As the dialogue progressed, my inquiries subtly shifted, guided by an internal curiosity that transcended the boundaries of that particular day. My questions delved deeper into the realm of their relationship, not only concerned with the event I had witnessed but rather the entirety of their emotional connection.

"Visu, I'm trying to comprehend not just that specific day, but our relationship overall. Did you ever reciprocate in the same way to my mom’s affections? Did you willingly engage in the dynamics you described to me?" My words were tentative, my gaze fixed on his face, hoping to decipher the nuances of his response.

Visu's countenance softened, his eyes holding a blend of memories and emotions. "Yes, Sindhu. There were many days, moments when the roles you observed were reversed. Love is a complex dance, an intricate choreography of giving and receiving. Your mom and I have shared profound intimacy, and the reciprocity of emotions has been a cornerstone of our connection."

His words painted a picture of their relationship that extended beyond the boundaries of that singular moment. I found myself grappling with a newfound perspective, one that revealed the depth and complexity of our emotional bond. The interplay of dominance and submission, while still enigmatic to me, began to take on shades of a shared understanding, a canvas upon which our love story was painted.

Visu's voice carried a quiet earnestness as he continued, "That day you witnessed, it was not the representation of the entirety of what we share. Our love encompasses myriad facets, each woven with care and consent. There were countless moments when I surrendered to her, allowed her to take control, and reveled in the beauty of her desires."

My curiosity persisted, yet now there was a directness to my inquiries, a desire to delve into the heart of the matter. I looked at Visu, my gaze steady, and posed a question that hung in the air, laden with raw candor. "Did you ever give... cunnilingus to my mom?" 

Visu's response was measured, aware that the conversation had reached a point of unfiltered honesty. He nodded slowly, acknowledging the reality of our discussion. A flicker of surprise crossed his features, recognizing the mature understanding that I had displayed in using that particular term. 

In his mind's eye, a memory resurfaced, the recollection of the last time he had performed that intimate act. He spoke with a blend of honesty and explanation, "Yes, there was a time when I did. It was an evening suffused with tenderness and vulnerability. Our emotions intertwined in a symphony of passion, guided by an intimacy that defied words. In that moment, it was a reflection of the love we shared, an act of devotion that transcended mere physicality." 

As Visu recounted that memory, I found myself listening with a mix of curiosity and understanding. The layers of our relationship, once enigmatic, began to unravel, revealing a profound tapestry of emotions that went beyond societal norms. The stories Visu shared, the memories he painted with his words, all contributed to a more nuanced perspective, one that delved into the depths of human connection and love in its myriad forms. 

In that juncture of vulnerability and truth, Visu and I engaged in a dialogue that transcended the boundaries of taboo, unearthing the complexities of our emotions and desires. The dance of our words wove a narrative that was at once enigmatic and revealing, shedding light on the intricacies of human relationships, intimacy, and the bonds that tie two souls together. 

Unbeknownst to Visu, as he attempted to convey the nuances of his memories, he found himself averting his gaze, as if the weight of those recollections bore heavily upon him. In that moment, a silence hung in the air, carrying the unspoken emotions that had unfurled during our conversation. 

I remained seated on a futon in the hall, absorbing the unfolding narrative. As the story continued to weave its tapestry of revelations, Visu's footsteps carried him to the grand piano situated adjacent to the futon. Seated upon the chair, he faced the elegant instrument, his fingers occasionally grazing the keys as if seeking solace in their familiar touch.

Meanwhile, moved by a blend of emotions and thoughts that had surfaced, I shifted my position. What had begun as a seated stance evolved into a reclined posture, my legs now extending across the futon, their direction aligned with Visu's back. The dynamics of our physical arrangement seemed to mirror the intricate threads of our conversation, each movement a reflection of the evolving connection between two souls navigating the labyrinthine corridors of our emotions.

Amidst the contemplative atmosphere, Visu's mind began to recollect a specific night, a fragment of memory where Umaiyal's demeanor had been marked by evident stress. An unseen discord seemed to have unfolded between her and the Major, her husband. On that particular evening, she returned from a social gathering, her attire exuding a certain elegance, while the lingering echoes of a few beers she had consumed colored her disposition.

Sensing her need for respite, Visu had taken it upon himself to create an environment of solace. As the moonlight filtered through the curtains, casting a gentle glow across their surroundings, he offered her a cigarette, the act itself an unspoken gesture of camaraderie. With practiced ease, he passed her the cigarette, watching as she inhaled its calming tendrils, a shared moment of release.

With a sense of purpose, Visu ventured to further enhance the ambiance. He approached the music system and selected Beethoven's symphony, allowing its melodies to waft through the room. The lights were then subtly dimmed, lending an air of intimacy to their surroundings, as if the very atmosphere conspired to cocoon them in a sanctuary of tranquility.

In a touch of understated elegance, Visu returned bearing two glasses of wine, a gesture that spoke volumes of his desire to provide her a momentary reprieve from the rigors of life. Their delicate clinks seemed to resonate with unspoken words, a shared acknowledgment of the emotions that flowed beneath the surface.

As they sipped their wine and the symphony wove its intricate patterns around them, an unspoken bond seemed to solidify, transcending the realm of words. It was a night etched in memory, a testament to the subtle nuances of their connection—a connection that extended beyond mere companionship, a reflection of the intricate dance of emotions and shared experiences that had brought them to this very moment.

Umaiyal remained settled in the futon, and Visu graciously presented her with a glass. Instead of joining her on the futon, he positioned himself on the floor nearby. Gently, he gathered Umaiyal's fatigued legs into his hands, recognizing the probable discomfort they bore from hours in high heels. His touch was deliberate and practiced, as if he was well-versed in the art of soothing worn-out limbs. With skilled movements, he kneaded and caressed, the pressure of his touch expertly unraveling the knots of tension that had accumulated over the evening.

Intriguingly, Visu managed to sip from his own glass intermittently, a subtle action that seamlessly melded with his focused attention on Umaiyal's legs. His ability to maintain this rhythm without breaking the connection showcased a masterful balance between attending to her needs and indulging in his own.

The ambiance resonated with the soft melodies of Beethoven, creating an atmosphere of tranquility that cocooned them both. As Umaiyal reclined on the futon, she felt herself succumbing to the enchantment of the moment. The trials of the day seemed to dissolve, replaced by a growing sense of solace and intimacy. She observed Visu, his dedication to her comfort and the unspoken camaraderie between them. It was a reminder of the intricate layers that composed their relationship, beyond the realm of passion they shared.

With each passing moment, the fusion of the wine's warmth and Visu's attentive touch cast a spell on Umaiyal. The knots of stress that had clung to her earlier loosened, and a sense of serenity enveloped her. She allowed herself to surrender to the cushions of the futon, her gaze never wavering from Visu's form.

Meanwhile, Visu's focus remained steadfast on his task. As he continued his gentle ministrations, he found himself reflecting on the journey that had brought them to this juncture. Their connection had traversed the boundaries of convention, delving into uncharted territories of desire and emotion. In this intimate moment, he realized that their bond was built upon more than just physical attraction; it was a symphony of shared understanding and connection.

As his fingers completed their gentle dance, Visu offered a soft, reassuring smile to Umaiyal. The strains of the symphony lingered in the air, a soothing backdrop to their unspoken communication. Their silent exchange conveyed more than words ever could – a depth of understanding and a shared sanctuary where vulnerabilities were cherished.

Time seemed to stand still as they savored the moment, the unspoken language of their connection taking precedence over everything else. The world outside faded, leaving only the interplay of their presence and emotions. It was a snapshot frozen in the continuum of time, a testament to the simple yet profound power of connection and empathy.

As the notes of Beethoven's symphony gradually receded, Umaiyal's soft voice broke the silence. "Visu, would you sing for me? Let your words become the melody that fills this space."

A gentle smile touched his lips as he nodded, his fingers finding the familiar keys of the piano. His voice, like a velvet ribbon, wove through the air, carrying the weight of emotions and memories. As the melody flowed, Umaiyal joined him, her arms encircling his waist as she leaned against him. Their bodies harmonized with the rhythm, a dance of two souls intertwined.

The piano became an extension of Visu's feelings, each chord resonating with his connection to Umaiyal. And as he sang, his words painted a canvas of shared moments, dreams, and a love that transcended boundaries. Umaiyal's breath against his neck was a whispered affirmation, a soft echo of the emotions that pulsed between them.

As the music's resonance faded into the background, a newfound vulnerability began to bloom. Umaiyal, her fingers dancing with a blend of trepidation and desire, initiated a slow unveiling of herself. Garment after garment, she shed the layers that concealed her, revealing the contours of her body that had remained hidden in the shadows.

Visu watched, his gaze a tender caress, honoring the courage she displayed in her vulnerability. The air seemed to shimmer with a shared understanding, a mutual acknowledgment of the unspoken yearning that had brought them to this juncture.

The room was filled with the hushed symphony of their anticipation, a prelude to a moment where hearts would beat in unison. As Umaiyal stood before him, her essence bared both physically and emotionally, Visu's hands trembled with the urge to reach out, to touch, to convey the depth of his connection.

Their eyes locked, each holding a world of emotions that transcended spoken words. And as the distance between them seemed to dissolve, Visu rose from the floor, his movements mirroring the unhurried tempo of their shared melody. He approached Umaiyal with reverence, his touch igniting a spark that traveled through her like a whispered promise.

In this intimate interlude, there was no rush, no urgency. Every caress was a brushstroke on the canvas of their connection, every kiss a wordless declaration of their yearning. Their bodies moved in harmony, as if guided by a force beyond the physical, dancing to a rhythm that resonated solely between them.

And as the night embraced them in its tender embrace, they embarked on a journey of exploration, each touch deepening their understanding of the other. Time seemed to stand still, the outside world melting away, leaving only the symphony of their shared desires.

In the quiet of the night, their bodies found solace in each other's embrace, weaving a tapestry of vulnerability and passion. And as the moon cast a gentle glow upon their entwined forms, they discovered a truth that transcended the ordinary—a truth that existed solely within the confines of their shared space, a truth that pulsed within their intertwined hearts.

And as the night embraced them in its tender embrace, they embarked on a journey of exploration, each touch deepening their understanding of the other. Time seemed to stand still, the outside world melting away, leaving only the symphony of their shared desires.

As the final notes of the song Visu sang lingered in the air, Umaiyal stood before him, a vision of vulnerability and anticipation. Her breath quickened, mirroring the pace of her heart's rhythm, as she let the melody guide her movements. With a soft smile playing on her lips, she swayed to the tune in a playful dance, her blush adding a new hue to the canvas of their intimacy.

Visu's gaze held a mixture of admiration and reverence, his eyes tracing the contours of her body with a tenderness that spoke of his deep connection to her. In that moment, the world seemed to fade into the background, leaving only the two of them in a dance of desire.

The intimacy between them intensified as Umaiyal's dance slowed, the last notes of the song trailing into silence. And then, as if responding to an unspoken invitation, Visu found himself caught in the gravity of her gaze. With a sense of shared understanding, he began to unbutton his shirt, his movements deliberate and unhurried.

Umaiyal watched, her eyes fixed on Visu's form, her cheeks flushed with a mixture of anticipation and desire. As each layer of clothing fell away, the space between them seemed to shrink, until there was nothing but a whisper of distance.

With the last piece of clothing removed, Visu stood before her, vulnerable yet unashamed. Their gazes locked, and in that moment, words became superfluous. The symphony of their desires swelled, drowning out any doubts or uncertainties that might have lingered.

In the silence that followed, they stood as equals, both exposed in their humanity, both ready to embrace the journey they had embarked upon. And as the night enveloped them in its tender embrace, they surrendered to the currents of their shared desires, ready to explore the uncharted territories of their hearts and bodies, guided by the music of their connection.

Umaiyal's voice, a gentle plea, filled the intimate space between them. "Visu," she whispered, her gaze filled with a mix of longing and trust, "could you treat me with the same tenderness in bed?"

A tender smile curved Visu's lips as he met her gaze, his affection for her reflected in his eyes. Without a word, he reached out to take her hand, his touch a reassurance of his intent. Slowly, he guided her to the bed, their movements unhurried, as if savoring the anticipation that hung in the air.

As they stood beside the bed, the unspoken request lingered between them. And then, as if responding to the unspoken desires that had bound them together, Visu leaned in, his lips brushing against her forehead in a soft kiss. His touch was a promise, a vow to honor and cherish the trust she had placed in him.

With a gentleness that spoke of his reverence for her, Visu began to undress her, his fingers moving with a delicate grace. Piece by piece, the layers of fabric fell away, until Umaiyal stood before him, her vulnerability a testament to the depth of their connection.

And then, as their bodies met on the bed, their connection deepened. His kisses traced a path along her skin, each touch igniting a spark of pleasure that spread like wildfire. Umaiyal's breath quickened, her fingers finding solace in the soft strands of his hair, guiding him to the places where her desires burned the brightest.

With a mixture of tenderness and urgency, Visu responded to her unspoken plea. His lips and tongue became an instrument of his devotion, exploring the landscape of her body with an artistry that left her breathless. Time seemed to lose its hold as they surrendered to the sensations that enveloped them, the boundaries between giver and receiver blurring in the heat of their shared passion.

As their bodies moved in a delicate dance of connection, Umaiyal's voice filled the room, a melody of pleasure and surrender that echoed their unspoken emotions. The rhythm of their desires became a symphony, each note a testament to their mutual longing and the trust that had brought them to this moment.

And as the night deepened, their connection grew stronger, a tapestry woven with threads of vulnerability and ecstasy. In the hushed hours of intimacy, they discovered new facets of each other, each touch and kiss a testament to their shared journey of exploration and love.

Time seemed to lose its hold as they surrendered to the sensations that enveloped them, the boundaries between giver and receiver blurring in the heat of their shared passion.

As their connection deepened, Umaiyal's fingers gently lifted Visu's face from the haven of intimacy, her gaze meeting his with a mixture of desire and playfulness. A tender smile curved her lips as she whispered softly, her voice a caress against his skin. "Now, my dearest, let's keep things straightforward. Move to my cunt and help me release these built-up desires. Time is fleeting, and I'm well aware of your playful inclinations. Take your moments, allow your words to entwine with my clitoris - the endearing term you've bestowed upon my essence. But for this night, what I yearn for is swift and intense, a surge of euphoria. Please, Visu, I implore you to grant me this."

In response, Visu's own lips curled into an affectionate smile, his eyes locking onto hers as he nodded, his understanding clear. With a reverence that matched the depth of their connection, he moved, his movements a graceful surrender to her desire. Umaiyal watched him with an intensity that matched the fire in her veins, her anticipation building with each passing second. The air seemed charged with electricity as Visu's hands and mouth became a symphony of pleasure, his words and actions designed to elicit the most profound sensations from her.

And as they embraced this new exploration, a raw and uninhibited desire took hold, pushing them both to the brink of ecstasy. In the midst of their shared urgency, their connection intensified, the dance of their passions becoming a force that consumed them completely. Each touch, each word, each breath, they all coalesced into a whirlwind of sensations, a storm of desire that left them both breathless and sated.

However, Visu's response was a deliberate departure from her plea. His actions within the intimate dance with clitoris, symbolized his playful defiance. Instead of adhering to her direct request, he meandered around, teasing the surrounding areas - now to the minora, then to the majora, and even venturing towards the urethra. He was well aware of Umaiyal's need for direct clitoral stimulation, an essential key to her climax. Yet, he remained evasive, allowing her anticipation to mount and her plea to hang in the air.

Time seemed to elongate, stretching her anticipation to its limits before he finally turned his attention to her yearning clit. The moment his lips touched that sensitive spot, Umaiyal's grip on him tightened fiercely, a mixture of frustration and passion driving her movements. She held his hand in a firm yet desperate grasp, her silent message clear - he would not escape the consequences of his playful disobedience.

However, this was no novice endeavor for Visu. His practiced proficiency was evident as he persisted for more than ten minutes, navigating the intricate landscape of Umaiyal's desire. In the early stages of their exploration, he had grappled with the challenge of sustaining himself while providing her pleasure. Inexperienced, he had often found himself needing to withdraw for a brief respite, interrupting the flow and elongating her journey towards climax. Yet, like a skilled diver who masters the art of breath control, he had learned to maintain his rhythm while securing precious moments to inhale.

This mastery transformed his approach into a seamless symphony of sensations. His lips and tongue moved in a circular dance that he knew Umaiyal craved, their connection now a fusion of trust and understanding. A silent communion guided his actions as her hips began to sway in time with his movements, a telltale sign of the impending crescendo. The dance intensified, the intimate rhythm building a crescendo that mirrored the mounting intensity of her pleasure.

As the minutes ticked by, the fervor reached its climax. What had started as subtle shifts of her hips had now escalated into passionate undulations, an unspoken expression of her escalating ecstasy. Visu's keen intuition informed him of the critical juncture, and just as the intensity reached its peak, he transitioned seamlessly into the sought-after down-to-up motion that would send Umaiyal soaring.

In a swift span of seconds, Umaiyal's body quivered and convulsed, her passion erupting in an explosive climax that reverberated through her being. The intense waves of pleasure surged and peaked, creating an electrifying cascade that enveloped her. And in an unexpected twist, a surge of pleasure brought forth an even more profound sensation — a gushing release that marked the climax's zenith.

She arched in a mixture of delight and surprise as a new, unfamiliar sensation washed over her, a wave of warmth and liquid that was a testament to the depth of her arousal. She hadn't anticipated it, although it wasn't the first time such a phenomenon had occurred, many times she could achieve it through tools but not a tongue and lips. Yet, this was the first instance of such a unique experience while someone was pleasuring her in this intimate way.

As her body quivered and pulsed, she found herself simultaneously overwhelmed by this unexpected occurrence and elated by the staggering climax she had just experienced. Despite the surprise, there was an underlying acceptance, even a sense of pride in the unrestrained expression of her pleasure.

Her trembling fingers reached out to Visu, a mix of emotions dancing in her eyes. She pulled him up towards her, her lips finding his in a passionate kiss that was both an apology and a celebration. Words weren't necessary, for in that moment, their connection was more profound than any explanation. The unanticipated climax had only deepened the bond between them, a testament to their willingness to explore the uncharted territories of their desires.

In the wake of the electrifying climax, Umaiyal's laughter floated through the air, a mix of joy and teasing. "Well, that was an unexpected turn of events," she mused, her eyes dancing mischievously. "I never thought my dolores would get so enthusiastic."

Visu joined in the laughter, his eyes twinkling. "I must admit, your clit does have a mind of her own sometimes. But you know, it's not every day that a woman punishes a man for talking to another woman."
Umaiyal chuckled, shaking her head. "Oh, come on. You were enjoying every bit of it, weren't you?"

He leaned in, his voice a conspiratorial whisper. "Maybe a little too much."

Umaiyal raised an eyebrow playfully. "Well, if you're going to enjoy it that much, then I think it's only fair that I give you a free card. You can explore every nook and cranny of this body, my dear artist."

Visu feigned shock. "Every nook and cranny? That's quite the offer."

She shrugged, her expression flirtatious. "Why not? After all, it's only fair that I return the favor for the little squirt incident."

They both burst into laughter, their playful banter weaving seamlessly into the intimacy they had just shared. In the afterglow, their words were a testament to their connection, a connection that ventured into both the realms of passion and lightheartedness.

As they basked in the glow of their shared laughter, the world outside seemed to fade away, leaving them in a world of their own creation. A world where desires were explored, bonds were deepened, and laughter was the language of their unspoken connection.

As I listened to Visu weave the tapestry of his past with Umaiyal, his voice carried the hues of nostalgia, painting vivid images in my mind. I could almost feel the resonance of their laughter, the subtle dance of shared glances, and the uncharted territories of their connection.

Sitting at the piano, Visu's fingers gently caressing the keys, I sensed the depth of their shared experiences. The unexpected climax and the banter that ensued played like a cinematic reel in his mind. It was more than just a recounting of physical intimacy; it was an exploration of vulnerability, trust, and the intricate language of emotions that bound two souls.

The warmth in Visu's voice mirrored the depth of his feelings, and I found myself drawn into the intimate narrative. As he continued, I could almost sense Umaiyal's presence in the room, as if her laughter lingered in the corners and her teasing glances flickered in the shadows.

As Visu's story unfolded, weaving a tapestry of intimacy and shared exploration, a subtle current of desire stirred within me. The vivid narrative of vulnerability and connection had ignited dormant embers, casting a warm glow on the recesses of my own desires. Each word painted a picture of a profound connection, a dance of emotions that transcended physical boundaries. It was as if his memories were a key, unlocking chambers within me that resonated with the echo of shared laughter and the electric hum of unspoken desires. Lost in the enchantment of his words, I found myself tracing the contours of my own yearnings. The storytelling wasn't just a recounting of the past; it was an invitation to explore the uncharted territories of the present, to navigate the delicate dance of intimacy in ways I hadn't fully embraced before. And so, as Visu concluded his tale, the embers within me burned a little brighter, casting a glow that hinted at the unexplored chapters awaiting our shared narrative.

Amidst the flood of memories, my fingertips followed the contours of my desires, a journey that began inadvertently and gradually intensified. The delicate pearl of my clitoris felt more pronounced beneath my touch, its texture evolving as I explored. With a gentle caress, I teased its upper folds, allowing my hands to guide me in unlocking sensations I had yet to fully embrace. My thumb applied pressure, coaxing a response from my sensitive flesh as I navigated the intricate dance of pleasure. Sensations surged through me as I approached the brink, my conny muscles tensing in anticipation of release. Just as I neared climax, enveloped in a wash of warmth and wetness, Visu's presence disrupted the moment. Avoiding his gaze, I turned my attention elsewhere, concealing the intimate revelation that had unfolded. As the story concluded, Visu's gaze shifted from the past to the present, and what he saw was unexpected. Within me, conflicting emotions swirled—a silent debate over whether I desired his witness or wished for the moment to remain unseen. It was a moment of introspection, a silent exchange of vulnerability amidst the flood of emotions.

The sudden realization struck Visu, a mix of surprise, embarrassment, and a fleeting sensation of arousal. The unspoken tension lingered briefly in the air, a delicate thread connecting our shared stories to the complexities of the present moment. In response, Visu instinctively pivoted away, respecting my privacy and giving me the space I deserved. Walking into the kitchen, the sounds of running water and clinking glasses provided a brief interlude—a moment for me to regain my composure. The orange juice Visu prepared wasn't just a refreshment for the body; it was a bridge, a silent gesture to ease any lingering awkwardness.

Returning to the room with a tray of glasses, Visu sensed a shift in the atmosphere. The charged energy had dissipated, replaced by a more comfortable ambiance. Offering me a glass, he smiled softly, his eyes conveying understanding and reassurance. The unspoken message between us resonated—whatever had transpired was natural, a testament to the complexities of human connection, and a reminder that intimacy existed on many levels beyond just words.

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In incest மோகனீயம்

மோகனீயம் - Sindhu Diary


Amidst the scorching days of an unremarkable summer, a single day emerged that would shatter the ordinary rhythms of my life, forever altering the course of my existence. Returning from college, a weariness clung to me like a second skin, urging me to seek solace in the comforts of a brewed cup of coffee. As was customary, my mother's presence graced the house, occupied by mundane activities that often filled her day. In my perception, she embodied the archetype of a contented housewife, her routine unfurling in the backdrop of a father who held a prestigious position within the Indian Intelligence Bureau. With her, it seemed as though life revolved around domestic responsibilities and social obligations, the picture of a harmonious couple painted by their participation in soirées and gatherings. Yet, my imagination could not have foreseen the revelation that lay concealed behind this façade.

Within the tapestry of our familial routines, my mother's role was defined by domesticity and, in my youthful eyes, an obedient adherence to tradition. Her matrimony at the tender age of sixteen cast her in the mold of a devoted wife, an embodiment of cultural norms that persisted even into the 21st century. My father's occupation, while limiting his involvement in everyday household affairs, did little to deter her from orchestrating the rhythm of our lives with a deft touch. To the outside world, they were an exemplary pair, a couple whose interactions oozed camaraderie and unity during our monthly social gatherings, where laughter and dance flowed as freely as the evening breeze. In this concoction of expectations, obligations, and affections, I found comfort in the stability of their relationship, yet remained oblivious to the undercurrents that could disrupt the surface tranquility.

Occasionally, a rendezvous of their friends transformed our abode into a hub of joviality and mirth, offering me glimpses of a dynamic that seemed unshaken by any internal discord. Such gatherings displayed their harmonious partnership, leaving an indelible mark on my memory. Arguments and disagreements, it appeared, were alien to their rapport, an image that I naively believed mirrored the harmony of most families. Such interactions were fleeting, leaving me with an impression of my mother as the quintessential Indian mother, her role etched in the intricate threads of tradition.

But that fateful day would dismantle my assumptions, laying bare a reality I had never anticipated. It was a day like any other, an ordinary façade that veiled a tumultuous storm.

Indeed, the scene that unfolded before my eyes was one of profound astonishment. My gaze fell upon a tableau that seemed suspended in time, a tapestry woven with threads of desire and secrecy. The open window revealed my mother, draped in an alluring yellow saree that accentuated her elegance. Her form knelt before Visu, a figure known to me only through chance encounters and fleeting conversations. In that suspended moment, his attire held no hint of disarray, save for the undone fly that betrayed the clandestine nature of their liaison. As if an unseen puppeteer guided the scene, my mother's actions transcended societal norms, her fervent and passionate endeavors focused solely on the figure before her. 

The melodies of Rihanna's "Work" drifted from the room, mingling with the breathy sighs that escaped her. He made her lick his penis head for a minute, push the entirety of it down her throat and maintain it for a minute. 

In the heart of this intimate dance, I witnessed a side of my mother that had remained hidden from view, obscured by the façade of her familiar persona. Her lips, once the vessel of lullabies and affectionate words, now molded themselves around a pursuit that lay far beyond my comprehension. With a determination that bore the marks of practiced familiarity, she caressed him in a manner that bespoke both mastery and ardor. His hand, steadfastly entwined in her hair, painted a picture of control, while her own motions appeared to surrender to his guidance.

He allowed her a moment's respite, then plunged it in again. As she pushed herself forward, her throat contracted around his penis, causing his penis to be held tightly by her skilled grasp. His resonant moans reverberated with a palpable shudder, a symphony punctuated with shuddering tremors, a testament to the overwhelming pleasure he experienced. A climax surged forth, an eruption of his cum, cascading onto her countenance with an intoxicating mixture of satisfaction and elation. She bore witness to this load of cum with a fervent satisfaction, her participation in his pleasure evoking a sense of power and fulfillment. Her assistance guided his cum towards her face, an act infused with a potent cocktail of desire and daring. With a deliberate delicacy, she guided his cock back to her lips, drawing forth the remnants of cum with a lingering, tantalizing fervor. Her ministrations didn't stop there, as she employed her tongue to cleanse every inch of his cock, a gesture that spoke volumes of her connection with him. In the midst of this intense tableau, his gaze met mine, a silent exchange laden with inexplicable nuance. Despite the revelation of my presence, his response remained veiled, allowing me to depart and leave them to their enigmatic oblivion.

Amid the chaos of my thoughts, I found myself drawn into a world that felt surreal and yet undeniably real. The air seemed charged with an unfamiliar energy, as if the very molecules around me were conspiring to heighten my senses. It was then that I became acutely aware of the subtle dance of pheromones—those silent messengers that bypass words and logic, weaving connections between beings. In that moment, my mother's actions seemed to emit an intoxicating scent that mingled with my own tumultuous emotions. The aroma of desire, curiosity, and even defiance intertwined in the air, enveloping me in a heady blend that I struggled to resist. It was as though our lives had momentarily collided, and the universe itself held its breath, sensing the magnetic pull that had taken hold of me.

Life has been unbearable ever since the imbroglio; I can't shake off the mental image of my mom giving a blow job to a stranger out of my mind. Moreover, it was with someone my own age - or perhaps just a few years older. I felt utterly disconsolate, to the point that I sought refuge in a bath, hoping it would provide some solace. Unfortunately, even after multiple attempts, the image persisted, as though etched into my mind. How does one erase something that has left such a profound impact? Emerging from the bath, I was taken aback by the sight of my mom entering the room, and there I stood, completely exposed. I made no attempt to hide, not even with my hand.  

She said, 'I'm sorry, Sindhu. I didn't know you were taking a bath,' as she tried to turn away from me. She had always respected my privacy, and incidents like this were rare as I had grown up. Usually, I would at least have a towel or a brassiere on, and definitely panties.

Before that incident, I had immense respect and unwavering admiration for her. Whatever had transpired in that half-hour couldn't diminish that. She embodied what you could call a perfect Indian mother, not the millennial type who becomes a best friend to her daughter. She was more traditional, maintaining stricter boundaries and displaying an uncompromising, borderline authoritarian approach. This doesn't mean she didn't care for me; in fact, she was trying to protect me from the harsh realities of the world. I understood the sacrifices she made to enroll me in singing and dance classes.

Until a few years ago, she would always be there to drop me off and pick me up from these classes. I cherished the way she took care of our household, running it in a near-perfect state. I couldn't help but dwell on and brood over that incident, wishing it had been nothing more than a fleeting encounter or an occasional dalliance.

"That's alright, Amma. Give me a minute," I said while trying to cover myself up with a towel. I didn't know whether Visu had told her about what I saw; I wish he hadn't. I needed time to process the information that had just become available to me.

"You were supposed to be back from college by now, so I was looking for you. You took a bath in the morning; what happened? Are you alright?" she asked. My gut feeling was that Visu hadn't told her anything. There's a chance that even if he did, she might still be trying to keep it from me, but my mind dismissed that possibility. My thoughts were a mixture of different ideas: adultery, threats, or just pure love. However, the conclusion in my mind remained uncertain, and I couldn't reach a decision. Despite being brief, the incident became an epiphany—a sudden realization—that I didn't really know her. What I was experiencing was ineffable, even to my own mind. As I thought about her, the word "ingenue" came to mind, but she was quite the opposite: not young, but rather sophisticated.

"Nothing Amma, I just want to clear something out of my mind."

I surmised that my comely and demure mom must have freshened up before setting out to find me - all the cum from the earlier blowjob is gone now. She looked absolutely fabulous and irresistible, completely devoid of any makeup. A natural beauty, her thigh-length hair beautifully complemented her round face. Her large eyes and dark eyebrows bestowed upon her a unique and captivating allure. A subtle touch of mascara rendered her already dazzling eyes even more enchanting. The fleeting memory of the earlier incident was nearly impossible to grasp, and the sense of condemnation I had initially felt was dissipating rapidly. Yet, it bore another influence on my mind, sparking within me an untoward and obscene sensation for my mom—still in its nascent stages but gradually taking root. At this point, I had wrapped myself in a towel, and she cast a comprehensive gaze over my entire body, from head to toe. It seemed that she must have felt a sense of pride in her handiwork as if she had produced something truly remarkable. A young, attractive, and vivacious Tamil girl—my persona embodied these qualities. Throughout my journey in singing and dancing, she had always been my greatest advocate. However, even a mere glimpse of my avant-garde, unclothed form should render her equally proud of my physical attributes.

"Please dry your hair, Sindhu, otherwise you will catch a cold," she advised. I was just about to reach for a blow dryer, but when she fetched another towel from the cupboard and considering my desire for her touch, I didn't object to the idea of her manually drying my hair. Seated on the edge of the bed, I felt her begin to dry my hair, and inadvertently, my head brushed against her bosom. It was impossible not to notice their firmness. With her vantage point, she could likely see the cleavage exposed by my towel, prompting me to quickly adjust it. Despite this, I was quite certain that she wasn't showing any particular interest.

She handed me the towel and said, "Alright, now finish drying your hair. I'll prepare some evening snacks for you." With that, she promptly exited the room. Initially, I contemplated following her discreetly, yet I found myself intensely stirred by the unexpected turn of events and I was absolutely aroused by the nature of the serendipity. Even though what I was going through was sexual in nature, I couldn’t bring myself to even think about masturbation. My body shut down, as if in an anti-masturbation or anti-libido state. However, an irresistible impulse took hold of me once she had departed to masturbate. Typically, I find solace in the enigmatic embrace of the night—a realm of secrecy shared solely between my being and my body. This nocturnal veil assures me of uninterrupted moments, shielding any possibility of my mother inadvertently discovering this aspect of myself. Yet, today, an unprecedented urge beckons me to embrace illumination, as if I am driven to expose the depths of my true essence. This inclination resembles a subtle act of retribution directed toward my mother, employing my own corporeal existence as a conduit. I comprehend that this sentiment might defy logic, but it resonates within me as an unadulterated truth. 

I entered the chamber and carefully fetched the lengthy mirror, positioning it gracefully on the ground, its support resting against the chair. The mere contemplation of gazing upon my intimate regions sent a shiver coursing through me, even though such a sight had not evaded me previously. Yet, in the aftermath of uncovering my mother's disloyalty, this act assumed an entirely novel significance. Seating myself upon the woven rug, my form aligned with the mirror, I initiated a gradual parting of my legs, allowing my reflection to mirror the unfolding scene. The panorama was enthralling. My skin, unblemished and radiant, the delicate contours of my vulva pronounced and full. It conjured thoughts of the blooming flower, with its petals veiling a hidden nectar that the touch of a finger could reveal, exuding an aromatic dampness akin to that within sea shells.

I directed my hands toward my pubic region, carefully placing them on each side, and commenced a gentle caress upon the delicate expanse nestled between my inner and outer lips, moving them up and down on both sides. I was not yet making contact with my clitoris; instead, I teased my increasingly fervent vagina, relishing the anticipation of the sensations that awaited. The exhilaration I felt, intertwining with the facade of seeking retribution, was nothing short of astonishing.

Amidst the tapestry of my thoughts, I couldn't help but delve into the enigmatic realm of my mother's clandestine liaison, an encounter that I had inadvertently stumbled upon. What transpired between her and Visu who shared those stolen moments? My mind meandered like mist on a moonlit night, conjuring scenes that played out in the shadowy recesses of my imagination. As my own exploration continued, so did my musings. I couldn't escape wondering if their own intimate moments mirrored the intensity I was experiencing now. Were they, too, driven by an irresistible force that led them into the depths of their desires? Did their bodies and souls collide, leaving them gasping for breath and consumed by the fervor of their connection? In the midst of my own longing and revelations, an unexpected kinship emerged with my mother. We both grappled with the enigma of our desires, traversing the labyrinth of our emotions in search of our authentic selves. In a world that often sought to constrain us, we each aspired to break free, embracing our passions without apology.

I could no longer resist my aching need to progress, and I delicately inserted the first two fingers of my right hand into my succulently moist vagina. With them, I ventured to explore the contours of my inner passage, in search of my g-spot. Upon withdrawing my fingers, I employed them to caress the region encompassing my clit, yet refrained from direct contact. My breath quickened, synchronizing with the hastening rhythm of my heart. Now, I found myself directly stimulating my clitoris, utilizing one hand to part my silken folds while the fingertips of the other moved rhythmically up and down over the pert, awakened bud.

The approach of the orgasm stirred within me an intense excitement, prompting convulsive movements that resembled the act of plucking the ripest fruit from a branch. I tugged at the branch with fervor, as if determined to harvest all that was within reach and to usher forth a tumultuous cascade, a tempestuous orgasm. This climactic torrent transpired as I gazed upon my own reflection in the mirror, witnessing the dance of my hands, the glisten of honeyed allure, and the entirety of clitoris gleaming, a moist radiance nestled between the thighs. I screamed out in ecstasy driven by the primitive raw orgasm I was experiencing. I had no idea such physical and emotional intensity could be summoned by the masturbation. I realized I was crying uncontrollably, overwhelmed by a beautiful and fulfilling orgasm that washed over my body, leaving me drenched in contentment.


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In 18+ 21+ incest lesbian இன்செஸ்ட் சிறுகதை புனைவு லெஸ்பியன்

I lost my virginity to Mohandoss

Akilandeswari - Google chat status - Public
I lost my virginity to Mohandoss


எனது Buzzல் வந்து விழுந்த அகிலாவின் இந்த அப்டேட் என்னை கொஞ்சம் நகர்த்திப் பார்த்தது. அவள் அப்படிப் பொதுவெளியில் சொல்வதில் எனக்குப் பிரச்சனையில்லை தான், அவள் இந்த முடிவை முட்டாள்த்தனமாக எதையோ யாருக்கோ நிரூபிப்பதற்காக மட்டும் எடுத்திருக்கக்கூடாது என்று வருந்தினேன். அதன் பின்னர் தான் இனி யாருக்கெல்லாம் நான் பதில் சொல்லவேண்டியிருக்கும் என்ற யோசனை எழுந்தது, என்னையும் அவளையும் தெரிந்த - அவள் ஸ்டேட்டஸ் மெஸேஜ் ரீச் ஆகயிருக்கக்கூடிய - நபர்கள் என் அலுவலகம் முழுதும் இருந்தார்கள். என் ஜூனியரிலிருந்து, என் ப்ராஜக்ட் மேனேஜர், இந்தியா சீஃப் இப்படி. கொஞ்சம் பேருக்கு எங்களைப் பற்றித் தெரியுமென்றாலும் சமுதாயம் கல்யாணத்திற்கு முன்னான உறவைப் பற்றி வைத்திருக்கும் சித்திரம் எனக்கு கவலையளித்தது. என்னை விட அகிலாவை அது பாதிக்கும் என்றே நினைத்தேன். கொஞ்சம் கொஞ்சமாய் அவள் இதைச் செய்திருக்க வேண்டாம் என்ற எண்ணமும் எழுந்தது.

10:30 AM aeswari: how is it???
me: ஏன்டீ இப்படி செஞ்ச
aeswari: நேத்தி நம்பினேன்னு சொன்ன
அதாவது நான் வெர்ஜினா இருந்தேன்னு
me: நீ உதைபடப்போற
aeswari: ஏன் உண்மையைத்தான சொன்னேன் :(
10:32 AM me: Im not talking abt tht.
10:35 AM aeswari: சரி என் டெஸ்க்குக்கு வாயேன்.

வெண்பட்டு சேலையணிந்து, கண்ணுக்கு மை எழுதி மஸ்காரா போட்டு, புருவங்களுக்கு மத்தியில் இல்லாமல் கொஞ்சம் மேலே கொஞ்சம் பெரிதாய் கறுப்புப் பொட்டு வைத்து என்னை வரவேற்ற தேவதை தான் கொஞ்சம் முன்னர் என்னுடன் கன்னித்தன்மைப் பற்றிக் கதைத்தது என்று நம்பு முடியவில்லை தான்.

“சொல்லவேயில்லை அகிலா, ஹேப்பி பர்த்டே!” எனக்கு இன்றைக்கு அவள் பிறந்தநாள் இல்லையென்று தெரியும்.

அவள் நான் எதிர்பார்த்தது போலவே கண்டுகொள்ளவில்லை. “நான் இன்னிக்கு ரொம்ப சந்தோஷமா இருக்கேன். அதனால தான் சேலையில் வந்தேன்.” என்று சொல்லி என்னை அழைத்து அவளுடைய gmail பக்கம் காட்டினாள், என்னையும் ஜெயஸ்ரீயையும் தவிர்த்து மற்ற எல்லோரையும் ப்ளாக் செய்துவைத்திருந்தாள்.

“நான் கூட நினைச்சேன் ரொம்ப தைரியம்தானுட்டு, போடி இவளே, அஞ்சு நிமிஷத்தில் எவ்ளோ பயந்திட்டேன் தெரியுமா?!”

“நீ மட்டும் என்னைப் பத்தி எப்படியெல்லாம் எழுதியிருப்ப, அதான் சும்மா விளையாடலாமேன்னு...” என்று சொல்லிக்கொண்டே, அவளுடைய லாக்கரைத் திறந்து ஒரு டைரியை எடுத்தாள், முதலில் என்னுடையதோ என்று நினைத்தேன்.

“ஒரு விஷயத்தை இன்னிக்கே நான் உன்கிட்ட சொல்லணும், அதை மறைக்கக்கூடாது. ஆனால் இவ்வளவு நாளா உன்னப்பத்தி வராத ஒரு நம்பிக்கை இப்பத்தான் வந்திருக்குன்னு வைச்சிக்கோயேன். ஆனால் இந்த டைரியைப் படிச்சிட்டு என்னைப் பிடிக்கலைன்னாலோ இல்லை என்னை கல்யாணம் பண்ணிக்க விருப்பமில்லைன்னாலோ சொல்லிடு நான் தப்பா நினைக்க மாட்டேன். இதைப்படிச்சா தெரியும் எவ்வளவு பர்ஸனலான விஷயம் சொல்றேன்னு அதனால் சீக்ரஸி முக்கியம். புரிஞ்சிக்க”

கைகளில் இருந்த டைரி ஒரு மாயப்புத்தகம் போல் தோற்றமளித்தது, இத்தனைக்கும் பிறகு அவளை நான் வெறுக்கக்கூடிய அப்படியென்ன விஷயம் இந்த டைரிக்குள் இருக்க முடியும் என்று எனக்குப் புரியவில்லை. ஆனால் அகிலா இத்தனை தூரம் சொன்னதால் என்னதான் இருக்கும் என்று படிக்கநினைத்தேன்.

"There are lots of personal information not only about mine, but about my entire family, I know I can trust you, but you should know that too." என்று சொல்லிவிட்டு சிரித்தாள்.

 நான் சட்டென்று, “அகிலா உன்னை வெறுக்கிறதைப் போல் உன்னிடம் எதுவும் இருக்க முடியாதுன்னு தெரியும். நீ என்கிட்ட இதைக் கொடுக்க நினைத்ததையே நான் பாஸிடிவ்வா எடுத்துக்கிறேன். நான் இதைப் படிக்கலையே!”

உளறினேன்.

“இல்லை பரவாயில்லை நீ படிச்சித்தான் ஆகணும், after reading this if you cant keep it with you, I am fine." மேலும் சீண்டினாள். நான் பதிலெதுவும் சொல்லாமல் டைரியுடன் நகர்ந்தேன், என்னை அகிலாவை வெறுக்கும் படி செய்ய அப்படி என்ன இருக்க முடியும் என்ற கேள்வியுடன்.

தாஸ்,

நான் இதுவரைக்கும் உன்கிட்ட என் ஃபேமிலி பத்தி பெரிசாச் சொன்னதில்லை, நீயும் கேட்டதில்லை. ஜெயஸ்ரீயை பத்தி மட்டும் உனக்கு கொஞ்சம் தெரிஞ்சிருக்கலாம், அதுவும் எத்தனை தூரம் அவளுடன் ஒத்துப் போகக்கூடியதுன்னு எனக்குத் தெரியாது.


காதலிக்கிறப்ப இதப்பத்தில்லாம் தெரிஞ்சிக்கணும்னு அவசியம் இல்லைதான், நானும் உன்னை இப்ப நம்புறது போல நம்புறதுக்கு முன்னாடி சொல்லியிருக்க வாய்ப்பில்லை. ஆனால் என்னை கல்யாணம் பண்ணிக்கப்போறவன் கிட்ட எதையும் மறைக்கணும்னு நான் நினைக்கலை. இப்ப நான் சொல்ற விஷயத்தை எல்லாம் நாம சாட் பண்றப்பவே ஏன் சொல்லலைன்னு நீ கேட்கலாம். அதுக்கு என்கிட்ட பதில் கிடையாது, அதே மாதிரி நீ இதைப் படிச்சிட்டு இதைப்பத்தி கேக்கப்போற எந்தக் கேள்விக்கும் என்கிட்ட பதில் இல்லை.

எங்க அப்பா ஒரு குடிகாரன், சாரி உனக்கு சட்டுன்னு ’ன்’ போட்டுப் பேசுறதால படிக்கிறதுக்கு கஷ்டமாயிருக்கலாம், ஆனா என்னால வார்த்தைக்காக கூட அவனை ‘ர்’ போட்டுச் சொல்ல முடியாது. எங்கம்மாவைப் பிடிக்காம எங்க தாத்தா வற்புறுத்தினாருங்கிறதுக்காக கல்யாணம் கட்டிக்கிட்டானாம், பாவம் எங்கம்மாவுக்கும் தாத்தாவை எதிர்த்து எதுவும் சொல்ல முடியாம கட்டிக்கிட்டிருக்காங்க. கல்யாண நாளிலிருந்து எங்கப்பன் சாகற வரைக்கும் எங்கம்மா பட்ட பாடு கொஞ்சம் நஞ்சமல்ல. பாதி நாளு வேலைக்கே போனதில்லை, எங்கம்மா தான் ரொம்ப கஷ்டப்பட்டு எங்கள வளத்தாங்க. அவங்க சம்பளத்தையும் அடிச்சி பிடிங்கி குடிச்சிருக்கான் படுபாவி. அதுகூட பரவாயில்லை குடிச்சிட்டு வந்து தினம் தினம் எங்கம்மாவை எங்க கண்ணு முன்னாலையே அடிப்பான், தலையை சுவத்தில் கொண்டு மோதுறது, முகத்தில் கையை மடக்கி குத்துறதுன்னு தினம் தினம் எங்கம்மா முகம் கிழிஞ்சி தான் படுக்க வருவாங்க. நானும் ஜெவும் இதைப் பாக்காத நாளே இல்லை.

இதில எங்கம்மா மேல சந்தேகம் வேற, எவன் கூடவோ போய்ப் படுக்குறாங்கன்னு. உனக்கு எப்ப தாஸ் கெட்ட வார்த்தையெல்லாம் தெரிஞ்சிருக்கும், சுன்னி, புண்ட, கூதி, கண்டார ஓழி, தேவுடியா முண்ட இதெல்லாம். விவரம் தெரிஞ்ச நாள்லேர்ந்து இதையெல்லாம் கேட்டுக்கிட்டிருக்கேன் நான். எவன் கூடடி போய்ப் படுத்துட்டு வந்த, எந்த சுன்னிய ஊம்பிட்டு வந்தன்னு என் சின்ன வயசில கேக்காத நாளே இல்லை. நானும் சின்னப்பிள்ளைல சினிமா எல்லாம் பாத்துட்டு ஒரு நாள் அவன் திருந்திருவான்னு நினைச்சிருக்கேன். ம்ஹூம் அவன் திருந்தவும் இல்லை, எங்கம்மா படுற கஷ்டம் போகவும் இல்லை. என்ன இழவு காரணமோ தெரியாது என்னையும் ஜெவையும் ஒன்னுமே சொன்னது கிடையாது, திட்டினது கிடையாது. அவனுக்கு எங்கம்மா அடிக்கிறதுக்குத் தான் டைம் இருந்துச்சு.

நான் சொல்ல வந்தது இதையில்லை, ஆனா இதை இப்படித்தான் சொல்ல முடியுமாயிருக்கும். அதனால சொல்றேன்.

அப்புறம் எனக்கு கொஞ்சம் விவரம் தெரிய ஆரம்பிச்சது, தினமும் நைட் எப்ப செக்ஸ் வைச்சிக்கலாம்னு கேட்டு எங்கம்மாவை டார்ச்சர் செய்யறதை தினமும் கேட்டிருக்கேன். அவ்வளவு ப்ளைனா இல்லைன்னாலும் விஷயம் அதுதாங்கிற லெவலுக்குத் தெரிந்திருந்துச்சு. எவனோ ஒருத்தன் அவனோட அம்பது வயசுல குழந்தை பெத்திக்கிட்டதும், நானும் இப்பவும் ஆம்பளைன்னு நிரூபிக்கணும் குழந்தை பெத்துக்கொடுன்னு கொடுமைப் படுத்தினது கூட நினைவிருக்கு. அம்மா கருத்தடை ஆப்பரேஷன் செய்துக்கிட்டவங்க. அம்மா பாவம் வெளியில் போய் வேலையும் செய்திட்டு வந்து, சாப்பாடும் செஞ்சிக் கொடுத்துட்டு, நைட் அடியும் வாங்கிட்டு இவன் கூட காலங்காத்தால எங்களுக்குத் தெரியாமல் போய் படுத்துக்கணும். நான் அப்ப வயசுக்குக் கூட வரலை, எனக்கு நல்லா ஞாபகம் இருக்கு, ஆனா அவங்க செக்ஸ் வைச்சிகப் போறாங்கன்னு தெரியும். அந்தாள் கேக்கம் போதும் எங்கம்மா வேணாம் வேணாம் கெஞ்சிறது கூட கேட்கும். ஆனா ஒரு நாள் கூட என்னால் முழிச்சிருக்கவோ, அவங்க என்ன செய்வாங்கன்னு கேக்கவோ பாக்கவோ முடிஞ்சதில்லை. நான் இதில் போய் பொய் என்ன சொல்லப்போறேன். ஆனா சில நாள் போதை அதிகமாகி அம்மாவை பொட்டுத் துணி கூட போடாம நிக்க வுட்டுப் பார்த்திருக்கேன். எதுக்குமே கலங்காத அம்மா அப்ப மட்டும் அழுதுக்கிட்டே கதவை சாத்திவிடச் சொல்லும், எங்களைத் திட்டி போய்ப் படுக்கச் சொல்லும், அழ வேண்டாம்னு சொல்லும். ஆனால் அந்த வயசுல முடியாத ஒரு விஷயம் அழாம இருக்கிறது, இன்னிக்கு நான் அழறதே கிடையாது, என்னால அழவே முடியாது, என் அம்மாவை நினைச்சிப்பேன் அந்தக் கஷ்டத்துக்கு முன்னாடி நான் படுறது என்ன கஷ்டம்னு நான் அழுததே இல்லை.

சரி விஷயத்துக்கு வர்றேன், உனக்கு டாக்டர்ஸ் ப்ளேன்னா என்னான்னு தெரியுமா தெரியாது. அது ஒரு குளிர்காலம்னு மட்டும் ஞாபகம் இருக்கும் இன்னும் கூட மழை பெஞ்சிக்கிட்டிருந்திருக்கலாம், நானும் ஜெவும் ஒரு பெட்ஷீட்டிற்குள் படுத்திருந்த ஞாபகம். நான் அப்ப வயசுக்கு வரலை, அவ உடம்பு என் மேல படுற சூடு என்னைத் தவிக்க வச்சது. நான் அவளோட வஜைனாவையும் அவ என்னோட வஜைனாவையும் பார்த்துப்போம், ஊசி போட்டுப்போம். ஊசின்னா ஊசி கிடையாது வெளக்கமாத்து குச்சி ஒன்னை எடுத்துக் குத்துறது. இப்படியெல்லாம் விளையாடியிருக்கோம். ரொம்பக் காலம் என்னை உறுத்தின விஷயம் இது, என் தங்கைய இப்படிச் செய்திட்டனேன்னு, உனக்குத் தெரியுமா தாஸ் இன்னைக்கு நினைச்சா அது கனவா இல்லை நிஜமா நடந்ததான்னு எனக்குச் சந்தேகமா இருக்கு. ஆனா இதைப்பத்தி நான் அந்த வயசில நிறைய நினைச்சிருக்கேன். அதனால என்னால நிச்சயமா சொல்ல முடியும் கனவில்லைன்னு சொல்ல முடியும். ஆனா இதையெல்லாம் நான் வற்புறுத்தித்தான் ஜெவை செய்ய வச்சேன். இன்னிக்கு நானும் ஜெவும் அல்மோஸ்ட் லெஸ்பியனா இருக்கோம்னா அதுக்கு நான் தான் காரணம்னு எனக்கு மனசு உறுத்திக்கிட்டேயிருக்கு. ஆமாம் தாஸ், நான் உன்கூட ஊட்டிக்கு வர்றதுக்கு முன்னாடி என்னையை ஒரு லெஸ்பியனாத்தான் நினைச்சிக்கிட்டிருந்தேன்.


தமிழ்நாட்டில் கொஞ்சம் அழகா பொறக்கறதில் இருக்கற பிரச்சனை தெரியுமா தாஸ்? அது அத்தனையையும் நான் ஃபேஸ் பண்ணியிருக்கேன், வயசுக்கு வந்த ஒரு மாசத்துல ஒரு பையன் ‘உன் முலை ரொம்ப அருமையா இருக்கு, என் சுன்னியப் பார்க்கறியான்னு’ சொல்லி யாருமில்லாத ரோடொன்றில் ஜட்டியைக் கழட்டி காண்பிச்சான். நான் என்ன செய்திருக்க முடியும்னு நினைக்கிற, உதவாத அப்பன் ஒருத்தனை வைச்சிக்கிட்டு அம்மாகிட்ட சொன்னேன் அம்மாவாலையும் தான் என்ன பண்ணியிருக்க முடியும், மக்கள் நடமாட்டம் இருக்கற வரைக்கும் தான் என் நடமாட்டம்னு முடிவு செய்யறதைத் தவிர. என் கூடப்படிச்ச எனக்கு லவ்லெட்டர் கொடுக்காத பையனுங்களே கிடையாது, என் பின்னாடியே சுத்தறது, ஒரு பையன் பேரைச் சொல்லிக் கூப்பிடுறது இப்படின்னு வீட்டை விட்டு ரோட்டுக்கு வர்றதுன்னாலே பயந்த காலம் இருந்தது. வீட்டை விட்டு வெளியில் வந்தா எந்தப் பையன் என்னைப் பின் தொடர்ந்து வருவான் எவன் லவ்லெட்டர் கொடுப்பான்னு தினம் தினம் பயந்து செத்திருக்கேன். வீட்டுல மட்டும் என்ன வாழ்க்கை அப்பல்லாம் எனக்கு துணையா இருந்தது ஜெ மட்டும் தான், அம்மாவுக்கு அப்பாகிட்ட அடிவாங்கவே நேரம் பத்தாது. எனக்கும் ஜெவுக்கும் ஒரு வருஷம் தான் வயசு வித்தியாசம். நான் அவகிட்ட எல்லாத்தையும் சொல்லுவேன், என்னோட ஆறுதலே அவ மட்டும் தான். சொல்லப்போனா அவளும் எங்கப்பனும் தான் ஒரு வைராக்கியமா என்னை ஜெயிக்க வைத்தது, இந்தப் பிரச்சனைக்கெல்லாம் ஒரே தீர்வு நாங்க நல்லா படிக்கிறதுதான்னு எங்களுக்கு சின்ன வயசிலேயே தெரிஞ்சிருந்தது. எங்கப்பன் எங்கம்மாவுக்குக் கொடுத்த டார்ச்சரால் நொந்து இருந்த என்னை எப்பவும் ஜெதான் தேத்துவா.

டாக்டர்ஸ் ப்ளேன்னு சின்னவயசில செக்ஸ் பத்திய மனப்பான்மை இல்லாம செய்வதைச் சொல்வாங்க, அதாவது விளையாட்டா ஆண் பெண் உறுப்புக்களைத் தொட்டுப் பார்க்குறது, ஆனால் எங்களுக்கு எது சரி எது தப்புன்னு சொல்லித்தர்ற நிலையில எங்கம்மா இல்லேங்கிறதால, நாங்க அதில் செக்ஸுவல் இன்டன்ஷன்ஸ் கொண்டு வந்துட்டோம் வயசுக்கு வந்ததுக்கு அப்புறம். எனக்கென்னமோ ஆண்களையே பிடிக்காமப் போயிருந்ததால் எனக்கு இதில் சம்மதம் இருந்தது, வயசுக்கு வந்ததுக்கு அப்புறம் ஜெ தான் இதை ஆரம்பிச்சான்னாலும் அதற்கும் நான் தான் காரணம்னு இன்னமும் நினைக்கிறேன். எங்கப்பனோ இல்லை ஜட்டியைக் கழட்டி காண்பிச்சவனோ, எங்கப்பன் கடன் வாங்கிட்டு வரச்சொன்னப்போ மாரைக் கசக்கினவனோ இல்லாமல் நான் என்னையத்தான் இதற்கு காரணம்னு சொல்வேன். நான் சந்தோஷமாதான் இருந்தேன் இருக்கேன், அக்கா தங்கை லெஸ்பியனா இருக்கிறதைப் பத்திய கேள்விகள் எனக்குள்ள உண்டுன்னாலும் நானும் சரி ஜெவும் சரி ஒரு மாதிரி எங்களை இந்த அடலஸண்ட் காதல் கிட்டேர்ந்து இப்படித்தான் காப்பாத்திக்கிட்டோம், எங்களுக்கு நாங்களே ஒரு மாதிரி உதவி செய்திக்கிட்டோம்னு தான் நான் நினைக்கிறேன். ஊட்டி வர்றவரைக்கும் என் வஜைனாவிற்குள் எதையும் நுழைத்துக் கொண்ட நினைவில்லை. எனக்கு நான் லெஸ்பியனாங்கிற டவுட் இருந்துக்கிட்டேதான் இருந்தது, ஆனால் ஜெக்கு அப்படியில்லை. அவள் தான் ஒரு லெஸ்பியன்னு நம்பினாள். என் டவுட் என்னை என் கிளிட்டோரிஸை விட்டு கீழே நகர விடலை, ஜெவுக்கு அதிலும் விருப்பம் இருந்தது. அவள் இரண்டு மூன்று வருடங்களுக்கு முன் எங்கிருந்தோ ஒரு டில்டோவைக் கூடப் பிடித்துக் கொண்டு வந்திருந்தாள், நான் மறுத்துவிட்டேன். என் உச்சத்தை கிளிட்டை நக்குவதால் மட்டுமே பெற்றுவந்தேன், ஜெவின் கைகளுக்குக் கூட அனுமதியில்லை. நான் என் முதல் உடற்சேர்க்கையின் பொழுது தான் ஹைமன் கிளியும் என்றே நினைத்தேன். அதனால் தான் அத்தனை பிரச்சனையும். சரி அதை விடுங்கள்.

நான் என்னை இப்படி ஒரு லெஸ்பியனாக நினைத்துக் கொண்டிருக்கும் பொழுது தான் நமது நட்பு உருவானது, எதனால் உன்னை எனக்கு இவ்வளவு பிடித்திருந்ததுன்னு தெரியாது. Love at first sight கிடையாது நம்முடையதுன்னு உனக்கும் தெரியும், நீ என்னைக் கன்வின்ஸ் செய்து கொண்டேயிருந்தாய் ஆனால் உன்னால் என் பாறைக்குள் நுழைய முடிந்திருந்தது. இஞ்ச் பை இஞ்சா உன்னால் என்னை நகர்த்த முடிந்தது. ஆரம்பத்தில் நான் நகர்ந்தேனான்னு தெரியாது ஆனால் உன்னுடனான சேட்டிங் என்னை நகர்த்தியது. மொத்தமாய் உன்னை நிராகரித்ததிலிருந்து, உன்னுடனான உரையாடல்களுக்கு ஒப்புகொண்டு, என் எல்லைகளுக்குள் நின்று கொண்டு செய்த பெற்ற விளக்கங்கள், எல்லைக்களைக் கடந்து இணையவெளியில் உலவியது, பின்னர் நேர்ப்பேச்சில் எல்லாம் பேச வைத்தது என நான் மாறிக்கொண்டேயிருந்தேன். ஆனால் எனக்கே தெரியாமல் இந்த மாற்றம் என்னிலிருந்த என் செக்ஸுவல் ஓரியன்டேஷனைப் பற்றிய கேள்வியை எழுப்பத் தொடங்கியது. உன்னுடனான பழக்கம் சென்று கொண்டிருந்த பொழுதுகளில் எல்லாம் நானும் ஜெவும் ஒன்றாகயிருந்ததில்லை என்று பொய் சொல்ல நான் விரும்பவில்லை, ஆனால் என் லெஸ்பியன் நம்பிக்கையை மீறியும் என்னால் ஒரு ஆணுடன் உறவு கொள்ள முடியும் என்ற நம்பிக்கை உன்னால் தான் வந்தது. ஆனால் சாதாரணமாய் வரவில்லை, கடைசி வரை என்னிடம் ஒட்டிக் கொண்டிருந்த ஆண்களின் மீதான வெறுப்பு - என் அப்பனின் காரணமாய் - என்னை உன்னிடம் நெருங்க விடவில்லை. தோற்றுப் போவதன் வலி என்னை முயற்சி செய்ய விடவில்லை. ஆனால் செய்யச் சொன்னது ஜெதான்.



உன்னுடனான என் பழக்கம் ஜெவிற்கு தெரிந்துதானிருந்தது, பிடித்தும் தான். நான் ஜெவிடம் ரொம்பவும் டிபன்டன்ட் ஆக இருந்தேன், அதை அவள் வெறுத்தாள் என்று சொல்லவில்லை. ஆனால் அப்படியில்லாமல் இருந்தால் நன்றாகயிருக்குமென்று அவள் நினைத்திருக்கலாம். நான் லெஸ்பியனா என்பதைப் பற்றிய சந்தேகம் எனக்கு இருந்ததும் இருப்பதும் அவளுக்குத் தெரியும், ஒருவேளை நான் உன்னுடன் உறவு கொள்ள முடியாமல் போனால் ஒரு வகையில் என் செக்ஸுவல் ஓரியன்டேஷன் எனக்குத் தெரிய வாய்ப்பிருக்கும் என்று கூட நினைத்திருக்கலாம். நீ அவளுடன் புனே சென்ற பொழுது என்ன செய்தாயோ எனக்குத் தெரியாது, அவளுக்கு உன் மேல் நம்பிக்கை வந்ததும், என்னை உன்னிடம் டெஸ்ட் செய்து கொள்ளும் படியும் அவள், புனே சென்று வந்ததும் தான் சொன்னாள். அவள் சொன்னால் உன் உள்மன அளவிளாவது நீ ஒரு லெஸ்பியனா இல்லையா என்பது தெரிந்து தான் ஆகவேண்டும் என்றும், அதை உறுதி செய்யும் பல வழிகளில் இதுவும் ஒன்றென்றும், அவளுக்கு இது உதவியதுன்னும் சொன்னாள். எல்லாவற்றிற்கும் பிறகும் என்னால் தோல்வியடைவதை ஒப்புக்கொள்ள முடியவில்லை. நான் காலம் கடத்தினேன் ஆனால் உன் டைரி நீ எவ்வளவு தூரம் என்னைக் காதலிக்கிறாய் என்பதைச் சொன்னது, அதன் ப்ராக்டிகல் தன்மை என்னை உன்னிடம் கொடுக்க இசைந்தது. ஆனாலுமே எனக்கு கடைசி வரை என்னால் ஒரு ஆணுடன் சந்தோஷமாய் இருக்க முடியுமா என்ற கேள்வி இருந்தது. ஆனால் இருக்க முடிந்தது என்னில் பல மடங்கு சந்தோஷத்தைக் கொடுத்தது. எனக்கு நான் உன்னிடம் அன்று முதல் முறையே அப்படி நடந்து கொண்டது - இரண்டாவது ஆர்கஸம் வரவழைக்க நான் செய்த அத்தனையும், முதல் தடவை தான் நீ வாயை வெச்சதும் வந்துடுச்சே - உனக்கு தவறா தெரிஞ்சிடுமோன்னு பயந்தேன். ஆனால் நீ என்னைப் புரிந்துகொண்டதாய் இதுவரைக்கும் நினைக்கிறேன்.

நீ என்னிடம் என் மாஸ்டர்பேஷன் பற்றிக் கேட்டதற்கான பதிலும் இந்தக் கடிதத்தில் இருக்கு. ஆமாம் நான் செய்திருக்கேன், செய்துக்கிட்டிருக்கேன் - நீ நம்ப கல்யாணத்துக்குப் பிறகு என்னை சேட்டிஸ்ஃபை செய்யலைன்னா செய்துப்பேன். கலாச்சாரம் பண்பாடு லெஸ்பியன் ஹோமோசெக்ஸுவல் பத்தியெல்லாம் நீ என்னுடன் சாட்டிங்கில் பேசியதை வைத்து உன்னைப் பற்றிய ஒரு அபிப்ராயம் எனக்கு இருக்கு. ஆனால் அது தவறாகவும் நான் தவறா புரிந்துகொண்டதாகவும் கூட இருக்க முடியும். உன்னை எதற்காக இல்லாட்டாலும் இதை நீ ஊருக்கெல்லாம் சொல்லி என்னை அசிங்கப்படுத்த மாட்ட என்கிற அளவி உன்னை நம்புகிறேன். மற்றதை நீ சொல்லித் தான் தெரிஞ்சிக்கணும். FYI என் அப்பன் செத்துப்போய் ஐஞ்சு வருசம் ஆகுது, நான் காலேஜ் படிக்கிறப்பவே தண்ணியடிச்சி ரோட்டில் அடிபட்டு செத்துப்போய்ட்டான். அம்மா ஊரில் இருக்காங்க நானும் என் தங்கையும் மட்டும் தான் இங்க இருக்கோம். என்னை நீ கல்யாணம் செய்துக்க முடியும்னா என் பக்கத்தில் இருந்து நான் என்ன செய்யணும்னு சொல்லு, இன்னொரு முக்கியமான விஷயம் இந்த லெஸ்பியன் விஷயத்தைத் தவிர்த்து என் தங்கை ரொம்ப நல்லவ, என் உயிரை விட மேலாதான் அவளை நினைச்சிக்கிட்டிருக்கேன் அதனால அவகிட்ட உன்னால மரியாதையா நடந்துக்க முடியாதுன்னா - I mean எப்படி சொல்றதுன்னு தெரியலை உனக்கு எப்படிப் படுதோ அப்படி வைச்சிக்கோ - இப்பவே சொல்லிடு.

என்கிட்ட இதைப்பத்தி நேரிலோ, போனிலோ இல்லை சாட்டிங்கிலோ நீ பேசலாம் எல்லாவற்றுக்கும் தயாரா இருக்கேன்.

அகிலம்.

நான் படித்து முடித்து நிறைய நேரம் இதைப்பற்றியே யோசித்துக் கொண்டிருந்தேன்.
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